Cold Sores are Assholes

Imagine being 15 again. Acne, weird fashion sense, awkward lanky limbs, puberty is in full force and then all of the sudden you get a cold sore.

Cold sores are assholes.

You walk into school and you’ve tried to cover it with make up, but it’s only drawn more attention to the open pussy sore on your face. The most promising over the counter medication is Abreva, but it costs 4 hours of working at minimum wage to pay for a tube that only lasts for half a cold sore.

You know stress makes them worse, but how can you not stress about your crush seeing that you have a form of herpes. Worse than that is all your friends saying “you have herpes!” in a very clever demeaning way.

Fast forward, you’re now almost 25.

Cold sores are still assholes, but you’ve realized they’ll leave much quicker if instead of hiding them you smother them in the same expensive Abreva.

Let me tell you a little something. I’ve tried EVERY home remedy that promises to take them away and I’ve used every medication possible and here is my best advice: Cold Sores are assholes, treat them as such. Ignore them, ignore how they make you feel and luckily, you can take your anger out by smothering them in Abreva.

All of you that are cursed with cold sores like I am, just know we are a tough breed. Much love.


Blogging. What is it good for?

Let’s name things we haven’t done in 3 months.

        • Go out of the country… Wait I’ve done that.

We made it to Costa Rica! One of the most beautiful places I’ve ever been. #jjmkdocostarica

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  • Go on a road trip to explore ghost towns… Wait I’ve done that.

  • Decide to sell your house, then decide to keep your house…. Wait I’ve done that.
  • Become an aunt to twins… Wait I’ve done that.


There is nothing better than hanging with these twins. #thomasandmarcus #moreDeManntwins


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  • Celebrate an ungodly amount of birthdays… Wait I’ve done that.
  • Blog… Wait, oh yeah, that’s right.

I haven’t blogged in 3 months. It wasn’t necessarily intentional, but it wasn’t definitely a learning experience. I’ve become very addicted to social media and blogging, I think it’s more often than not that I post things to get likes instead of the purity of the post. I know that sentence almost contradicts itself, but it makes sense to me. I love to scroll through my own instagram feed when I’m having a bad day, I like to reread posts that I’ve written. I enjoy looking back at my own life, because it’s pretty bad ass.

I named my blog “Becoming What I Always Was” after one of my favorite quotes in my favorite movie, Big Fish.

 “A man tells his stories so many times that he becomes the stories. They live on after him, and in that way he becomes immortal. “

I’m going to keep writing, but I’m going to try really hard to take a step back and write for enjoyment. I never really had an end game for my blog, I don’t want to get picked up by another blog or website, I don’t want to make bundles of money. I want to write. I want to record my stories and my life. So here’s to virtual second chances.

Time is Relative

Isn’t it funny that right now 7 days feels like it’s going to go by so quickly, because that’s when I’ll be headed to Costa Rica. Yet, I’ll only be there for 7 days. Time is a very relative thing.

Like how on a Sunday 11am can feel like the appropriate time to get dressed, but on Monday 11am is when you’re feeling exhausted and ready for a lunch break?

Either way, I’m excited. I’m SO excited to leave the country. It’s been almost 3 years since I was last out of the US. It feels like much longer! The older I get the more I realize how much I love travel. Not just going anywhere though, going somewhere new!

We’ve been staying home from both our families annual vacations to Mexico (Mazatlan and Cozumel). It’s been a matter of spending our vacation time somewhere new. A place we’ve never been before!

I cannot wait to go to Costa Rica! What’s your dream vacation?


Lobster-Giving 2014

In reality is there anything better than spending an uninterrupted 4 days off with family and friends? I work for an awesome company and we were able to have Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday off, which was bliss. I feel like you don’t want an update about Thanksgiving, because I’d say turkey gobble turkey family gobble sleepy.

Instead I decided to write up two lists. What we enjoyed and didn’t enjoy.


+ This year we had a relatively small Thanksgiving with my immediate family and my grandma. Since this was the case my mom went all out and bought fresh LIVE lobsters from Maine for our dinner. We were savages, we killed the lobsters and then ate them. It was a very untraditional Thanksgiving; Pulling apart lobsters and laughing at the mess it created. It was delicious.

+ My parents just bought an older Motorhome that they’re taking down to Mexico this year. After we ate dinner, we all hopped in the motorhome and drove around for an hour or so. We even drove down to the gas station and filled up with candy. It was fun to sit in the motorhome and tell stories without any TV or phones (we left in such a hurry most of us forgot our phones… and shoes!). I was grateful for this since I won’t be heading down to Mexico with them this year.

+We weren’t able to make it to Jared’s family Thanksgiving, so we went over for Sunday night dinner. I love hanging out with my niece and nephew. We played uno and twister. Plus they gave us our annual hand crafted ornaments for our tree and Elsie decided she loved sitting on Jareds shoulders, which was too funny. I love those kiddos.





+ Jared ended up with a gnarly migraine on Thanksgiving, so we went home, shut off all the lights and laid in bed for way too long.

+ For some reason our dogs were super stinky this weekend. I promise, we don’t allow them to have human food, but these dogs were lighting up our house all weekend. We almost gave them to the gypsies (an old threat my mom used to use when we were bad kids.)

Overall, we had a really wonderful, really long weekend. I hope you all enjoyed your Thanksgiving as well.


Dear Mom

When I login to this good ol’ blog of mine, the first button I usually click is the “comments”. There is nothing more validating then seeing that people are reading what you’re taking the time to write. Back in the hay day of blogging I used to have so many comments, that I would have a hard time responding, now I usually only get comments from my mom. So this post is dedicated to my mom, the one who always comments.

Dear Mom,

Hello (It’s me, Miki.) Your favorite daughter, probably favorite child, but no need to get the boys’ panties in a bunch. Since you always comment on my blog, I wanted to write this post and thank you for a handful of thing I appreciate that you do/did for me.

+ Thank you for babysitting my extremely spoiled dogs whenever I ask.

+ Back in high school, I used to nap everyday after school. Thanks for allowing that and not making me play sports, I suck at them anyway. True happiness is found in naps.

+ Also, after naps you watched Reba and Judge Judy with me, thanks for spending some solid lounge times with me.

+ There have been a lot of times when I brought home animals; birds, iguanas, hamsters, guinea pigs, dogs, and I’m sure even more. I know you’re not a huge fan of animals, but you still let me fill up the tub and let my iguanas take a swim and I really appreciate that. My life isn’t complete without animals.

+ One time we thought my car was stolen, my little brother actually forgot to pull it off the streets and it was towed, but you paid to get that out of the impound lot. Thank you.

+ Thanks for sharing your clothes and shoes with me, even though, I wasn’t the best care taker. I’m getting better and I still like sharing clothing.

+ Thanks for always cooking food that I like, I had no idea I was picky until I moved out of the house. Funny how that works.

Mom, thanks for commenting on my blog. You’re the best.

I love you more than there is sand in Lake Powell!